Mai Thanh的心聲

親愛的小于，你知道嗎？

今天是9月10日，明天就是9月11日……這令人痛恨的日子！

一年前，你那為追逐藝術夢想而奮鬥了十二年、卻從未真正擁有過片刻安寧的人生，就這樣被奪走了……

直到生命的最後時刻，你依然被迫承受著那些惡魔殘酷的行徑……

當這兩個注定充滿悲傷的日子一點一點地走過，我真的害怕去面對、去接受內心深處的焦慮、悲傷與心碎……那種令人窒息的感覺，彷彿所有話語都哽在喉嚨裡，怎麼都說不出口……

我討厭現在的自己，腦海裡一片混亂，思緒糾結成一團……

身邊的人——我的朋友、來自世界各地的陌生人，以及所有愛著你的人——都在計畫著用各自的方式，表達對你的愛與思念……

而我，曾經獨自熬過6月15日——你的生日。那漫長的二十四個小時裡，我明明清楚地知道，你已經不在這個世界上了，卻只能隔著螢幕看著你，看著那些過往的影像……

那一天，就那樣陰鬱地過去了，充滿著無聲卻撕心裂肺的痛與遺憾……

告訴我……求求你告訴我……

我究竟要怎麼熬過這個9月，這兩個注定如此煎熬的日子？

這兩天，就是我們失去你的日子，小于！ :(

英文原文：Dear Yu! Do you know? Today is September 10th, and tomorrow is September 11th… these hateful days! One year ago, your life—which had strived for twelve years in pursuit of your artistic dreams, yet never known a single moment of peace—was stolen away just like that… In the final moments of your life, you were still forced to endure the cruel acts of those demons… As these two days, destined for sorrow, slowly pass by, I am truly terrified to face and accept the anxiety, sadness, and heartbreak deep inside me… that suffocating feeling where words choke in my throat, impossible to speak… I hate my current state, my thoughts a tangled, chaotic mess… The people around me—my friends, strangers from all over the world, and everyone who loves you—are planning their own ways to express their love and remembrance of you… As for me, I once endured June 15th—your birthday—all alone through those long twenty-four hours; knowing full well that you were no longer in this world, yet only able to see you through a screen, looking at old images… That day passed so gloomily, filled with a silent yet heart-wrenching pain and regret… Tell me… please tell me… how am I supposed to get through these two days in September that are destined to be so agonizing? These two days are the days we lost you, "Yu"! :(

宇恩說：這位網友應該是很多小于的訊息還沒有看過。其實，6月15日其實並不是小于的生日，請看《于朦朧特別訊息：我的生日感言》。