Yashima的心聲
親愛的小于，以及所有的副元神們：
今天，我想向你致敬，小于！願你的光芒一天比一天更加明亮，永遠照耀在我們心中！
三年前，我自然而然地開始覺醒，這讓我開始質疑關於宗教、政治，以及生命本身運作方式的一切。那段時間，我有很多恐懼，情緒也很不穩定。我突然生了一場病，現代醫療體系卻無法治療。醫療系統甚至無法診斷我究竟出了什麼問題，所有檢查結果都顯示正常。於是，我開始尋找真相，閱讀書籍，試圖理解生命的奧秘。也許，那些正是我開始走上一條探索生命之路的起點。但我始終覺得缺少了什麼，只是一直無法說清楚那究竟是什麼。
直到去年，你的離世撼動了我的內心深處。我無法理解，明明這一生從未認識你，為什麼我卻能感受到如此巨大的心痛。我越是尋找其中的原因，就越感到心碎。我從來不追星，我相信有很多人都有和我一樣的感受。那時候，我正在閱讀《靈魂之旅》，也親眼見證了你所經歷的一切。然而，命運有著不同的安排：去年十月，我的妹妹把我介紹給 Ariel 的頻道，我從她的聲音中感受到了一種安慰。
在真正轉到乾淨世界的「宇恩說」之前，我已經關注 Ariel 的頻道一段時間了。在那之前，我開始了解黑色產業鏈，也閱讀法輪大法中關於人類起源的內容，並逐漸意識到，小于一直都在我們身邊。
每天早上，我都會在凌晨 4 點到 7 點之間醒來，只為了閱讀那些文章，而這已經成為一種自然而然的習慣。我不想錯過任何與小于的訊息有關的內容。我開始閱讀法輪大法，去觀看神韻演出，也終於意識到，我一直在尋找的那個更大的真相，就是我過去始終覺得缺失的那一塊拼圖。至此，一切終於拼完整了。
小于的轉世故事也帶給我安慰。我從那些故事以及其中人物的選擇中學習，看見他們當時想要遵循的人生準則與道德。我開始將法輪大法的原則運用到自己的生活中，以真、善、忍來要求自己。後來，我也逐漸了解到自己與小于、Ariel 以及宇恩之間的緣分。
我開始看見更大的圖景，理解眼前這場宇宙使命，也意識到，一切從來都不是偶然。
我繼續向內尋找，試圖理解為什麼那一世會被人類如此誤解，被描繪成一個反派。我流下了許多眼淚，一層一層地剝開迷霧，逐漸明白其中的真相，最終在理解上迎來了一次突破。
我經常在畫布上作畫。回頭看自己的作品時，我才發現，它們一直在以某種方式輕輕地向我傳遞著一些訊息，只是當時的我還無法理解。而現在，我看見了它們所傳達的內容。
原來，我從未忘記。我一直都記得自己的使命，只是自己一直沒有清楚地意識到而已。
今天，我在這個階段迎來了最後一次突破。
無論時間過去多久，也無論這個世界有多麼令人困惑，只要我們選擇活在內心那道永恆的光中，我們真正的自我始終都在那裡等待著我們。
我們在這個世界所承受的沉重壓力，從來不是為了擊垮我們，而是為了燒去過去的執著，喚醒我們真正的潛能。
如果不是因為你，小于，我不可能說出這些話。如果不是你治癒了我的心，我永遠不會認識到那個我一直在尋找的真相。
我由衷地感謝小于、宇恩、Ariel，以及團隊中的每一個人，也感謝那些經常為我的留言，以及其他檸檬們的留言點讚的朋友。你們一直鼓勵我努力過好自己的人生，以純淨和真實的心生活。
你們溫暖了我的心，也讓我明白，原來我同樣有能力去愛。
真摯地，
Yashima
英文原文如下：
Dear Yu and all the secondaries,
Today I want to honor you, Yu! May your light shine brighter each day, forever in our hearts!
Three years ago, I was awakened spontaneously, which made me question everything about religions, politics, and the very system of life. At this time, I have a lot of fears, and I am emotionally unstable. I came down with a sudden sickness that could not be treated with the modern medical system. The medical system couldn't diagnose what was wrong with me; all tests have come back normal. I start searching for the truth, read books, and seek ways to understand the mystery of life. Perhaps those were ways to start my beginning toward a spiritual path. But I always felt something was missing; I couldn't pinpoint what it was.
Not until last year has your passing shaken my core. I couldn't understand why, not knowing you in this lifetime, I could feel such tremendous heartbreak. The more I search for why, the more heartbroken I am. I never chase after celebrities; I'm sure there are many people who feel the same way. I was reading "Journey of the Souls" at the time, and I witnessed firsthand the things you go through. But fate had a different plan: my younger sister referred me to Ariel's Channel in October, and I felt a sense of comfort in her voice.
Following Ariel's Channel for a while before we actually transitioned into Yu En Transmission on Gan Jing World. Before that, learning about the dark industry, Falun Dafa's text on how humans came to be, and slowly realizing that Yu has been by our side all along. Every day I would wake up between 4 AM and 7 AM just to read the articles, a habit that has now become automated. I never want to miss out on anything about Yu's message. I started reading Falun Dafa, went to a Shen Yun performance, and realized the bigger truth I was looking for, the missing piece I felt before. This comes to a complete puzzle.
The reincarnation stories of Yu also give me comfort. I learned from the stories and the characters' choices, and saw the lesson and moral characters they were trying to live by at that time. I start to apply Falun Dafa's principles to my life, living with Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. Eventually, I also learned about my bond with Yu, including Ariel and Yu En. Start to see the bigger picture, understand the cosmic mission at hand, and realize that nothing was ever an accident.
I continued to look inward, trying to understand why that lifetime was so misunderstood by humans, being portrayed as a villain. Shred many tears, layer by layer, come to understand, and finally reach a breakthrough in understanding. I often paint canvases, and looking back, I realize my work has been nudging me with messages I couldn't understand at the time, but I can see them now. Turns out I've never forgotten; I have always remembered my mission, just subtly unaware.
Today was a final breakthrough at this time. No matter how much time passes or how confusing the world is, our true reflection is always waiting for us if we choose to live in that eternal light of our hearts. The heavy pressure we face in this world was never meant to break us, but rather to burn away old attachments and awaken our true potential. I couldn't say this statement if it weren't for you, Yu. If you hadn't healed my heart, I would never have realized the truth I was always looking for. I am truly grateful to Yu, Yu En, Ariel, and the rest of the team, including friends who often like my comments and other lemons' comments, who have always encouraged me to do my best in life and live with purity and truth. You all have warmed my heart, and I have realized I am also capable of love.
Sincerely,
Yashima